and just to confirm what i already thought

he's home... lol... WTF? yeah i know that he got up late (and as usual that's my fault) however some girl named Julie called for him, Jason answered the phone, he thinks that it's one of the girls from Labor Ready. i on the other hand don't think that it is. Talked to Crystal today and she says that she hasn't known Dallas to stay out all night... he's done it twice in the span of a week. what the hell am i supposed to think about all that? there's no call home, most of the time he doesn't come home for 4.5 hours AFTER he gets off work. this is Crap. i don't know what i am supposed to think about all this and i sure as hell don't know what to do about it. i can't see myself asking him to come home when he gets off work, heaven fobid that i want to see him sometime other then the 15 mins before he goes to bed that he spends in the shower. i try to do what he asks of me, things like washing the clothes and such. the only time he notices is when i don't do it. doesn't say anything to me about it when i do get it done. what am i supposed to do about it? can't exactly talk to him about it. he doesn't hold a conversation with me anyway so there's no point in trying. yeah i know i am FAR from perfect but i think i try to let him know that i think about him when he's not here... i think i try to let him know that i do things FOR him and i acknowledge when he does something for me. called mom to see if she had any words for thought for me and all she said is "that's a leo for you, they are unreliable, unperdictable, and undependable. that's why i have only had one in my life that i was 'romanticly' involved with" and the whole time she's telling me this i am thinking "and you couldn't have said something to me about this when i was thinking about dating him WHY?" oh well eh? looks like it's just anouther 4 months out of my life. don't really see the point in trying anymore, don't really see the point in caring anymore...